It has been a long time since I have written a post. Lately, I have just been filming a video as an update instead of writing a post.
This past week was finals week. My first term in Buffalo is done and I am 1/5 done in my journey here. I will be back in Buffalo in about 7 weeks to start my first round of clinical rotations. It is incredibly scary, but I am trying to stay focused on the fact that this next 7 months may be the hardest of my life so far.
With that being said, I have to make sure that every other part of my life is set and I will not be having to deal with crazy health problems, money issues, etc. The next seven weeks will be spent hopefully relaxing, but also spending quite a bit of time getting my life in shape, in every sense of the word.
There are so many things that need to be done. My first week back home (starting Monday actually) is going to be spent getting a new physical, updating my TB/PPD, and having a gastroenterology appointment. So most of my health-ish things will be taken care of right off the bat. Then I have to go through all of my medications and work out whether I need to purchase new insurance instead of just Medicaid (AKA AppleHealth). Hopefully getting all of those things done right away will allow me to focus on the other parts of my life - family, fitness, modelling nutrition, relaxation.
The other thing, which I mentioned in my last Vlog, is starting the process of finding out which internal streams of dialogue actually represent me and sorting out what I know does not represent me.
I guess you could say I am hoping to "find myself" this short summer off of school so that I can come back and start this next set of classes and clinicals the best way possible.
Building confidence, learning about myself, getting in shape mentally - physically - emotionally: that is my plan for the summer -- oh, and a lot of horses too. And my dog. And sleep.
This first four months in the CPD program have been rough, but looking back, I know they could have been much worse. And I know I handled them as well as I could. And toward the end, I was really starting to come into my own. I owe a lot of that to therapy.
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