Wildlife are both easier and harder to spot in the snow. The snowiest place I thought we'd see was actually the least snowy. Ohio has some darn awful drivers. On ramps to I-90 in parts of Montana have cattle guards on them. Wyomingans farm deer. People in Wyoming and not afraid of mischief done to their tiny oil wells. Indoor waterparks are a big deal in the northern plains of the US. People in Indiana are proud to be Indianan. The fog is dense in Indianapolis. Peoria, Illinois, smells like Fried Chicken. Ohio has beautiful bridges. I am not as brave as I sometimes pretend to be, but when it comes down to it, I can get things done.
I guess I am ready to get back to business as usual.... I am scared to death, but I am so ready to have a routine and to move on with my life. I had a panic attack last night and that was another scary adventure. Right now, I am doing slightly better. I am laying down on my bed watching the Seahawks (hopefully win) against Atlanta and dreading the morning when I have to figure out what comes next. Tomorrow is check in day and I have to figure out if I moved into the right room this morning. So far my impression of this school's housing procedure is that they expect you to know what to do without any information.
But I will stop that negative train of thought right here....
I am looking forward to Tuesday when classes start. If I am in class with papers do and reading that I can focus on avoiding, the time will go by much faster and then I can begin to worry about what is going to happen over the summer. Which reminds me that I still have to register for Summer. Which means I have to go meet with my advisor who scares the crap out of me. And I also have to get at least 3 forms signed so that my financial aid package (which is still being revised) can go through, so I am not stuck with a $20000+ bill in the next week. In addition to that, I have to decide whether I am going to shell out the mucho bucks to buy all 6 textbooks I am going to need. And all of the things I have to do to maintain my car, and how much worse the snow, ice, and salt makes it.
This is how my brain works: too many thoughts that all lead to another though and they are usually all negative.
Silver linings DO NOT come easily to me. Stressful thoughts DO.
I just have so much to do. And the anxiety is eating me up.
Back to the positives.
I am starting a new life and a new journey to the end of school, rather than a journey to the beginning of school. And there is no better feeling that that of moving forward. I have some ideas for new videos on my YouTube channel (migraines, thyroid meds, thyroid diets, etc..). I have a job interview for Wednesday.
Money is tight, my nerves are stretched thin, I may be in the wrong room. But I am moving forward. First big hurdle = crossed.
Starting next week, there will be more diet content on the blog. Thanks for hanging in there everyone!!
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